Life......sometimes it just is, or is it?

We tend to (I tend to?) make life more difficult than it really is or should be,

Communicating becomes non existent
Listening becomes less and less frequent
Parenting becomes more and more difficult
Blame becomes easier and easier
What causes all of this?

When did I stop listening, talking and communicating in a calm manner?  
When did I become less important in the day to day stuff?
When did I become even less important in the things that are really important?
When did it become easier to blame everyone else for the problem?
When do I accept or maybe just realize that the problems began years ago?
When do I become more concerned with my own feelings that those of others?

I've made a ton of mistakes in my life, relationships with my kids is at the top of my list of "can I get a do over" but at the end of the day I look back and realize that I did the best that I could at the time, they turned out to be pretty damn good kids and I that you were a part of their life, and what I gave and taught them will move forward for generations.

Are there things I'd do differently?  Hell yes,,,,,
I'd love more
I'd make more time
I'd listen better
I'd attend more school musicals
I'd buy fewer cars
I'd ride more

But the one thing that I'd do even more is tell them I love them, maybe I got another chance...I really believe that's what grandchildren are here for..........