Things I'll never know,,,,
Did he have a good day
Did he think about his precious daughter throughout the day and all the fun he had the day before
What did he have for breakfast, lunch and dinner
Did he have a snack late at night
What clothes did he wear that last day
What did he talk about and who did he talk to
I know I thought of him that last day
I wish I had at least texted him and told him I loved him
I hope he knew
There are a ton of things I have no clue about, how he spent his last day, his last couple of days, what he was thinking. I know this, I loved him, he loved his daughter more than anything, he loved his mom and sisters a ton and those nephews of his, well he was their hero, the guy that played with them, the one that rough housed with them, the Lego builder the kid on the bike with them and the best uncle they could ever have asked for.
I wonder if they miss him or were they to young to really have Nic full on, his quirks, his smile, do they remember his voice (I know I do and I've saved his voice mail message so I never forget) some have told me we sounded alike on the phone even, can they remember what he looked like without seeing a picture of him, do they remember all of the good times?
I know I do and I still remember a few of the bad times we had, but looking back on them now they make me smile and a few of them make me laugh. (If you ever want to hear the story of me chasing him up the stairs and him running out on the lawn and calling the cops just let me know)
Today is the third anniversary of his last night on this earth and I'm mad, sad and at times still pissed off that I don't know what his last day involved.
Nic took this selfie 2 days before......
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